I Got to Show You Grace! –– Guest Post by the Author of Praying Upside Down

Posted on: May 21st, 2015 by Laurie Coombs 5 Comments


We have the incredible privilege of hearing from my friend, Kelly O’Dell Stanley, today. Her new book, Praying Upside Down, was released recently, and so I wanted to be sure to introduce her to you all. I pray you are blessed.


One Sunday morning when our son, Bobby, was six, he left our pew and walked straight to the front of the church, up the steps onto the platform, right in the middle of our worship. Pastor Nathan was sitting in a chair off to the side, putting the finishing touches on his sermon notes. Bobby circled around the worship leader, ignored the musicians, and climbed into the seat next to Nathan.

With a sigh, he leaned back and then scooted to the edge of the chair. The big smile and hug Nathan gave him weren’t a surprise—Nathan had taught all the children that they were always welcome to come up front. That day, as I watched through tears, I finally understood the beauty of having direct access to God. Knowing that He welcomes me, and you, with joy. No matter who’s watching.

That’s what the Bible means when it says, “So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it most.” (Hebrews 4:16, NLT)

It’s a perfect picture of how we are to approach God. Boldly, with the faith of a child. Not hesitating, not being hindered by all the reasons we—or someone else—might think we’re not worthy to be up there right next to the King. All that matters—the only thing—is that He loves us. He could be annoyed by the interruptions; He could shush us and say that he has more important things to do. But He doesn’t.

Some people have trouble coming to God because they don’t feel worthy. They quote scriptures like Psalm 22:6 (“But I am a worm and not a man. I am scorned and despised by all!”). Their understanding of mankind’s (general) and their own (specific) sin, paired with an awareness of the holiness of God, cripples them, making them afraid to trust that He really wants them. Because they are convinced they don’t deserve to be there.

Somehow, I didn’t have that same struggle. I knew I couldn’t earn my way to a relationship with God, but like my son, I approached God with confidence. I took the Scriptures at face value: “God showed his great love for us by sending Christ to die for us while we were still sinners … So now we can rejoice in our wonderful new relationship with God because our Lord Jesus Christ has made us friends of God.” (Romans 5:8-12)

But then.

My mom was diagnosed with small-cell lung cancer and I started a three-year roller-coaster ride. I claimed to have faith, but I was as dry and parched as a desert inside. When it came time to pray, I had nothing to say. Bitterness and sorrow and pain replaced any words I might have had. After Mom died, I built the walls even higher—fortifying them, adding a moat filled with alligators, for good measure—to protect myself from being hurt again. I rolled my eyes when someone at church would stand up and testify that they had been healed. Or even that they believed in healing.

I wasn’t sure if God didn’t answer or if He gave me the wrong answer. I began to doubt whether He was able to effect change at all. I hadn’t just lost Mom. Not to sound overly dramatic, but I’d lost everything I believed in. My grief made me incapable of seeing the truth. And the fickleness of my faith filled me with shame.

I had ceased to be the child approaching God without hesitation, or even the temperamental teenager stamping her foot and refusing to look at Him—and turned into that lowly earthworm. Why would God want me back? Once I realized how much I wanted—needed—Him, I didn’t feel like I had the right to ask Him. Because I had rejected Him before.

And then one Sunday morning at church we sang a song that broke through my defenses. “Through it all, through it all… I learned to trust in Jesus, I learned to trust in God.” I felt the walls crumbling as I thought-prayed, “No I didn’t. I failed miserably. Lord, I’m so sorry.”

Immediately I felt His response. “But I got to show you grace!”

Notice, He didn’t say that He had to. Nor that He did it grudgingly. Instead, it was like our magnificent, holy God was a little child Himself, hopping from one foot to the other, giddy with excitement at the gift He was thrilled to give me.

The one I didn’t deserve.

But that didn’t matter to God. All that mattered was that He wanted me back. He allowed me to march right up to that altar and lean into Him, to scoot close to the edge of His chair. To look into His face and see the kindness in His smile.

And to take a deep breath of relief, knowing I was right where I belonged. Filled with, wrapped in, emboldened by, and surrounded by His unfathomable grace.


61FIOR-9R0L._SX80_Kelly O’Dell Stanley is a graphic designer, writer, and author of Praying Upside Down: A creative prayer experience to transform your time with God, which releases today. With 25 years of experience in advertising, three kids ranging from 21 to 14, and a husband of 24 years, she’s learned to look at life in unconventional ways—sometimes even upside down. In 2013, she took top honors in Writer’s Digest’s Inspirational Writing Competition. Full of doubt and full of faith, she constantly seeks new ways to see what’s happening all around her in her small-town Indiana home. Download free printables at www.prayingupsidedown.com.


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  • Alison

    God has brought me through so many storms and I’I’ve come so far my biggest hurdle or gigantic mountain Is my son , I keep beating myself up that I’ve done something wrong in that all of his friends have wives girlfriends n children settling down , my son so much like I once was, still lives with me hasn’t a girlfriend he works full time it’s only temporary for past 4 years , enjoys drinking every weekend into oblivion and the work I do is unsociable hours which doesn’t quite work with him coming home early hours with no regard for me. The saying reap what you sow springs to mind. My job as a professional driver and just so want to live on my own but can’t seem to ask him to leave , I love him he’s my son but sometimes dislike him too, God has never given up on me and something in me can’t give up on my son and to come boldly to God on His throne confidently fills me with dread I’m just not worthy am so ashamed of stuff if only I’d done things differently you see I’m one parent family so I tried to be both mum n dad to him and failed on both counts, keep asking God what is wrong with us that were both single stuck together and yet we grate on each other’s nerves, I have trouble communicating to him we’ve never had time apart so he just sees me as keeping on at him and dismisses me, so I’ve put distant between us and silent most of the time. I’m not sure what it is that I want to ask God for I’d love to see my son settle down as I believe it’s what he truly wants but he lacks confidence

    • This sounds like a difficult situation. I’m praying God gives you wisdom!

      • Alison

        God bless you Laurie thank you means alot xx

  • I James

    Hebrews 4:16 is one of my favorite verses in scripture. Unfortunately, I believe many Christians don’t believe they can approach God because of a misunderstanding of forgiveness and unrealistic expectations of God. Many people believe that God stills holds their sins against them. Yes, they will say they believe they are forgiven, but everything else they believe in addition to that nullifies it. You will hear things like, God “turns His back on us,” a Christian can “lose fellowship” with God when they sin or as the author of this posts states “He wanted me back,” which indicates she was separated from Him in some way. God goes with us. He never leaves or forsakes us. It is what we believe about Him that “separates” us in our minds. And when she talks about the healing that never came for her mom, there is a belief that God promises to physically heal all Christians when we get seriously ill. While this can and does happen, it is not a promise. Plus, we lose site of the truth that through death the ultimate healing takes place when we go into the presence of the Lord free from the suffering of this world. It was something I was reminded of when I lost my mom to cancer. I keep reminding myself that Hebrews 4:16 says we can come “boldly” to God’s throne. We can boldly approach God because there is nothing that comes between us and Him, including our sins or perceived lack of faith. God is faithful even when we are not. Thank you for your post. Be blessed.

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